A constant unfailing stone lighthouse blazing bright on the shore just for me when I’m lost in dark water. You’ve never abandoned me. No matter how much sorrow we’ve endured and I wonder at the limits of our friendship. I feel nothing but calming peace when we talk and it’s overwhelming, my eyes burn with unshed tears at how safe I feel sharing my thoughts and hopes with you.
Only you could tell me dying is not optional and using Catholic misery to make me laugh about it. It really only took you saying you don’t want me to go though….I can’t wait to see you again, healthy, happy, and definitely down for some fun.
It’s taking some time, but I’m getting back to where I need to be, back to being Crystal. Back to being your kiddo.